Since Muffin came home from the hospital on Tuesday night after being
diagnosed with Pancreatitis, he has been steadily getting worse. On Monday the
ultrasound had showed that his lymphoma was supposedly in remission (liver
looked
normal and values were good and lymph nodes were noticeably smaller) but now
I know that is not the case. He completely stopped eating or drinking as of
yesterday and his belly was distended. I took him in as an emergency this
morning. They discovered fluid in his abdomen and took an aspirate.
It contains lymphoma cells. They don't know if the cancer spread to his
pancreas which is what is causing the pancreatitis or it has spread elsewhere
in
the GI tract and the pancreatits is secondary to that. He has failed the CCNU
and wisconsin protocols and the vets are not hopeful that Cytosar U is going
to work. He is in pain and I know it. He was just laying here on the floor
staring into space not sleeping or responding to me just catatonic. He would
complain when I picked him up, he had never done that. I am completely in shock
that I could be told on Monday that he was in remission and today that it
looks like the end. He was only diagnosed the first week of November. I feel
like it's just not fair, it's not enough time! He was even still purring when
I
pet him at the vets office this morning. How can I put him down?
This is the hardest decision I have ever had to make and to top it all off,
today is my birthday.
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